As I was leaving the gym today, I passed one of the personal trainers, with whom I have a superficial 'Hi, how're you doing?' relationship. We said hello to each other and then he said, 'So, are you just doing stretching these days?' I tried to explain that I was recovering from a hamstring strain and that I was finding being unable to run really frustrating and that I wasn't in the mood to joke about it, but he merrily carried on with disparaging my lack of physical activity. I could feel myself about to burst into tears, so I just turned and walked away. And then I had to hide in the loo until I stopped crying.I don't know whether it was realising that people actually are noticing that I'm not doing anything, or whether it was because he essentially called me lazy (AND called me lazy in front of the person that he was doing training with), or whether it just brought home to me that running the marathon is NOT going to happen - but I was devastated. I had to have a Rocky Road cupcake at Costa Coffee to cheer myself up. (It didn't, by the way. That's how devastated I was.)
I know all of the logical, rational things to say to myself about this - including that this guy is a bit of a socially clueless fool - and I'm sure that I'll believe them tomorrow. But right now, I feel embarrassed and demoralised. I'm obviously not as okay with this whole not running thing as I thought that I was.
I was thinking your logical, rational thoughts as I read about it but can totally understand your tears and need for chocolate cupcakes. Impressed by your restraint by the way!
ReplyDeleteWhen do you have to make a decision on running/not running? Despite what he said, you are doing cardio so your fitness level should still be there when you're hamstring's ready.
I appreciate your positive formulation, but I think that I have to face reality. The cardio that I'm able to do is so minimal as to be non-existent (and I've just been consigned to another week of it) that I really don't see how I can manage the remaining training...I think that I'm ready for that gin & a shoulder to cry on now!
ReplyDeleteHe is not only socially clueless, but also highly unprofessional. You obviously held it together well. I'm pretty sure that anyone else in the gym who understands training, and who has noticed your change in routine, will realise that it must be injury not laziness - and just be thankful that it's not them in the same position!
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